falling.

birth:

9th march, 1993. sei wasn't needed. his father is gone, and his mother only bears him for 9 months just because she doesn't want to commit a sin. but little that she knows that sei rather her to get an abortion, that way he will never wake up into this fucked up world.

28th febuary, 1997

being left alone at home once he came back from the day care is what sei accustomed to, but the worst thing is, it's always his sister that cares, it's always his sister who feed him, look after him, and sadly, she's the only mother figure in his life. she would never leave him alone, but she's too busy running for jobs to pay for his food, for his own good.

sei took the time to wonder around the large empty box that they called a house, fiddling with his sister's pen and her spare notebook, scrawling the most shittiest handwriting ever known to mankind. revising abc's and 123's, trying to satisfy his own boredom just because his mother doesn't allow him to turn on the television.

14th april, 2003

sei never liked his mother's new husband's face. it's filled with filth, and the fact that he has more wives than he should grosses sei out. they've moved to south korea with a better house and television occupying him 24/7. sure, it was all new to a young boy like him; his life changes drastically as there's suddenly maids bowing to him calling him 'young master' and all that. his bed is too big for his pale feet to even reach makes him clenched his fist in confusion. he is too young to understand all this, yet he's unhappy. unhappy at the fact that his mother tries to forced feed him affection whenever her husband is aroundyet abuses him up when her husband isn't around. money is constantly threw around for him to leave whenever his mother doesn't want to see his face, and sei could only stare down at the money, not knowing what to do with it.

instead, he just kept a stash of it inside his shoebox, under his bed.

3rd march, 2006

being abandoned since adolescent made sei had that independent aura around him. he finally learnt how to love his life. and because no one cares, sei is free to do whatever he wants. he no longer lived in his old home, as his mother convinced her husband to "get them a separate house, darling." and some shitty excuses that sei didn't even bother to listen. he's perfectly fine alone with his older sister, thank you very much.

29th september, 2008

apparently, getting A+ on all his papers doesn't do shit. his mother still turn her back on him, and he realises that acting goody goody will never came into her attention. (like he would admit that.) and that's when he decides to hang out with the wrong crowd. faking such goody expression that his sister believes him so well. (she never smelt that shit on him, only the huskiest scent of cologne he sprayed on, lingering about just before he came and knocking on the front door, the taste of bubblegum never so fresh inside his mouth.)

2nd december, 2009

the kid changed. from tucked shirt to loosened attire, necktie carelessly around his neck, as his arrogant attitude rules the school. "where's the innocent sei?" they'd say, and sei would smirk, blowing the toxic cloud of smoke in their face. he still leads a normal life, with basketball, parties (almost every week), and travelling way downtown just to try the latest trends. companies starts rolling over to sei's house. with a ring on his doorbell, he'd be blessed with temporal love.

he doesn't mind all the companies that came to him during his lonely times. with the ringing of his call, they'd come knocking on his door. the soft kisses down his spine always makes him feel better about himself, as it reminds him that he isn't completely alone in his own world.

23 August, 2014

if it weren't for his noona, whom worked in the entertainment industry, then he wouldn't be here sitting in a yellow studio blurting out words with occasional lame jokes, talking to himself as he reads out his listener's messages. yes, he works as Seoul's most listened radio's dj. (smooth.fm is what they called, only because sei's voice is smooth as a ballad, and sweetest as sugar.) it wasn't his dream job, but he's fine with it nevertheless. husky voice speaking into the mic, with the click of his mouse double click the trendiest songs to play it, broadcasting it for the general public to listen. livestreamers who clicked in just to see his handsome face, along with the famous idols sitting in circles, getting them to do that typical free style rap introducing to their new album, or playing games to get the listeners laughed along with his funny remarks; and quite honestly, he earned more free signed cds more than he couldn't imagined, and yes, sometimes he sold it for extra money when his wallet went empty, ending up wasting that cash on packs of cigarettes and bottles of alcohols to occasionally cooling himself down from his aching anxieties.

present

after experiencing an incident he had never imagined he would ever, sei has changed for the better- well, that's what he thinks anyways. the male has toned down his recklessness, but his mind is still as sharp as ever. he had gotten a deal from his senior to sign into a hip hop entertainment company. now sitting on top of a throne with a macbook on his lap, he produced all kinds of beats and sells it away as a side hobby. incomes are starting to rolling in, and that's when he moved away from his old house. despite now living in an apartment, his bed positions inside the studio, against the counter, in front of his laptop.

hyvnari replied to your post:“A smile would be nice, for once.”

“So then, what can I do to make you smile? A true smile?” Her and cheering up others never ended up well, but she always tried.

the attempt effort makes yoongi sighed out, realising that there’s other people who cared, and he is quite grateful for that. “well..” he hums softly, finally a soft smile graced his lips. “if you would treat me to a nice brunch, then maybe i’ll smile.”

7 年前 / ; 1 热度

#hyvnari #.re

gooyoungx:

_{As if he has a choice. Gooyoung can be cold-hearted at times, but he can be soft and warm too - on rare occasions like this. He nods his head upon the latter’s request, sitting beside him after he pulls out his handkerchief from his pocket. “Wipe your mess” He said casually and rather not affected despite the other weeping beside him. The male sighs, lifting a palm to pat the other’s back. “There there…” so awkward his actions were, evidence that he’s never good at this episodes, but willing to try.}

“you have a handkerchief.” yoongi muses out, despite his condition. a choked laughter was made, followed by a several sniff with tears still dripping down. burying his face onto his handkerchief. the strong scent of another male’s cologne was evident, and it comfort yoongi a little. “you say the..hic.. the harshest thing.” yoongi complaint, along with several hiccups that just blurt out embarrassingly from his mouth, but yoongi got nothing to lose, because crying here already makes him embarrassed enough.

7 年前 from gooyoungx / ; 5 热度

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hirokimochi replied to your post:hirokimochi replied to your post:{` his feet…

Are you calling me fat—

{` gasps dramatically } absolutely not

7 年前 / ; 0 条热度

#hirokimochi #giggles at ur url everytime tbh #.re

hyxrii replied to your post:hirokimochi replied to your post:{` his feet…

I hope I don’t have to do a stunning gaze any more.

your stunning gaze was fantastical.

7 年前 / ; 1 热度

#hyxrii #.re

taveiur replied to your post:hirokimochi replied to your post:{` his feet…

definitely! what do you have in mind?

sadly, i’ve got nothing in mind. i was hoping that you’d do.

7 年前 / ; 11 热度

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themsidekicks replied to your post:{` his feet swinging high up the air, heaving out…

You aren’t alone on that mate. (`sighs)

Shame, it’s a sunday night here and I have no absolute plans.

7 年前 / ; 1 热度

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taeevn:

I am so glad that I found him last year, and I think it’s honestly sad that he doesn’t get more attention, he’s deserve it. The MV was a bit weird, that’s for sure- but I get what you mean, I think I can agree to that, it’s quite sexy, in some weird way. ‘specially the line “cause I’m about to make you beg for more than just love”, mhm!

i found him last year too, and i immediately subscribe, i mean, why not? he’s my favourite male artist as of now. I like Fiesty MV more though. but Shut Up is more aggressive. I like both, actually. but for now, White Lie is hand’s down good.

7 年前 from seuldere-blog / origin ; 7 热度

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taeevn:

they are, they are! I love how he is like when he’s drunk, he is truly adorable, and quite funny at times. His covers are brilliant, we all can’t deny that. I know that cover, it’s amazing, just like all the others. Mh, I also really like Shut Up, even though you have.. to get used to it, I suppose? Since he’s not really singing, more screaming with his voice cracking and all.

I know what you’re talking about. It’s too eargasmic, thank God that I found Jhameel. I found Shut Up MV a little bit weird, though, but I really like his voice, even his voice is cracking, i think it’s kinda..sexy? i don’t know, haha.

7 年前 from seuldere-blog / origin ; 7 热度

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taeevn:

‘cause baby, oh my, well it’s unfair, lookin’ like that make a gentleman stare.~ Oh god, yes. Come and Lie is beautiful. His voice sure is soothing, when I found him on YouTube I totally fell in love with him. Have you seen his “drunk performances”? They are hilarious.

his drunk performance are the best. he’s so cute when he’s drunk though. I love his covers too, and his lyrics is really clever. I forgot how I found him, but my first song of him is Thinking About You. It’s a cover and he did it wonderfully.

7 年前 from seuldere-blog / origin ; 7 热度

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taeevn replied to your post:{; sits quietly to listen to Jhameel. }

I absolutely love Jhameel. You are not the only one, not at all. Jhameel is awesome. Especially Feisty, Lion’s Den, White Lies and Poison—

I actually love Feisty so much. My other favourite song from him is Come and Lie. His voice is so soothing, I couldn’t help but fall for him.

7 年前 / ; 7 热度

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